I cried listening to music soulchild today. I can't help the fact that I'm lonely. I saw Patrick more often than Darrin or Mark, so I was used to being around him. Also, since he had his own place we had sex more times that I ever have before. Now that all of that intimacy is gone I feel the need to fill it again.

Maybe that's why I've been dipping my finger in cream cheese icing lately. And there's no question that's why I downloaded Tinder and OkCupid (neither of which I recommend, I deleted both). OkCupid was evil. So many Patricks on there, wanting to do everything that couples do but not calling it "dating".

Although OkCupid is better because you answer questions and then it matches you with other people and shows the percentage match you are

I don't know where I'm going with this. I downloaded Skout and it's somewhat better. I go on it and people compliment me and some others I chat with for hours. One guy named Eric has become a friend of mine, we chat pretty frequently.

Still, I'm moving forward, so onward and upward I suppose.