Love by any other name would make me feel as wonderful.

Darrin is coming to see me FOR TWO WEEKS in August! I can't wait!!!!! He's finally gonna meet my family, friends, see Vacation, everything. It'll be amAAAAZIIIING!!! I really cannot wait. Being without a drug for eight months is torture. My insides are knotted, my heart barely beats, I'm cold inside all the time even when I'm hot. At night when I should be sleeping, I stay awake and look at pictures of us, try to remember his smell, how he smiles at me, how he takes care of me like no one else does. When I was with him I was never hungry. I was never sleepy. My body wanted these things, but as long as my heart was full of his love, I needed nothing else.