DISAPPOINTING.

I went to a party on Friday night. It was reeeally not my thing. First of all, people were drinking. Since I'm not 21 yet, I don't wanna get arrested. I wouldn't mind that so much if people weren't trying to get me to drink. It was uncomfortable. THEN, people came in that nobody knew and started rolling the weed things. Even more uncomfortable. THEN someone walked in and asked "who's 18 in here?" EVEN MORE UNCOMFORTABLE. Parties in my mind should people a bunch of people dancing like idiots and having fun. Apparently, after about 2005, that idea died out. "Parties" are now an excuse to drink and have sex. Which sucks, because I do neither; another thing that makes me wish my boyfriend was here with me. I'd LOVE to bring him to a party. He's the kind of protective type that I like. Not the kind that would speak for me or tell me I'm not allowed to do something, the kind that would introduce himself as my boyfriend to everyone in the room :) gotta love him. SO I left the party early. I stayed for about an hour, had a few good laughs and then left. Everyone said I looked sad, sitting in a corner by myself. Well, I was playing defensive. Plus I was wearing a tight dress and high wedges (the whole reason I went to the party, to play dress up), so I didn't wanna get up and walk passed people. They might think I was showing off.

Which I was not! I also made sure that Darrin kept texting me the whole time. Just in case anyone asked, "It's my boyfriend." Someone did say "probably texting your man, huh?" "YUP!" I said, trying not to smile. No one talked to me after that HAHA. All of the men in the room were obviously single and looking for a one night stand, which I don't do. Oh, if only Darrin were there. That would have been a fun party!

SKEWING INTO RANDOM OTHER THING>>> I was talking with my friend and now supervisor. He asked me about Darrin and he asked if we "had fun before I left" for California. I laughed and asked what he meant by "have fun" it sounded dirty. He said that in California, "having fun" means "having sex". Haha, who knew, right? Everyone but me, I guess. I said nooo, I don't do that. He asked why not, was I Christian or Catholic? Haha, I haven't gotten that question before. I told him how I don't have a religion, but it just didn't happen yet. If it'd happened with any of my ex's it would have been a HUGE regret. No matter which of them it would have been. That's another reason that I like Darrin. He hasn't either, so it's no pressure. He's fine with waiting a year or more until I'm SUUUUURE sure. Which I lovedy love love. Haha, who would've known that two kids who hardly spoke to each other when they met would end up so close as young adults? Not me. I'm not gonna question the system, I'm just glad that I'm winning this love game. By a lot.