My heart hurts.

Darrin told me he's gonna cry when I leave. Then I started thinking about when I have to leave. I'm gonna cry too. On the plane ride back. I'm tearing up right now, just typing this. I'm gonna have to let him go. He won't be able to pick me up and take me to his grandma's house. I won't wake up to him watching me, smiling. We can't eat together.. I'm starting to cry. I love him so much and my heart is gonna break when I leave. This is so evil. I have to come back. For Spring break. And then again over summer. Ugh, I'm so sad now. I'm gonna spend every penny I have on visiting him. And staying at his house. I hate not sleeping with him at night.