Yesterday

I hung out with Jhonny. It was fun, we played this awful weird amazing game he has at on his computer. It's the most awful thing. This little boy tries to escape his demented, religious mom by fleeing into the basement where he has to fight monsters with his tears. It is so sad/amazing. After that there was this awkward silence that led to (content removed for awesome and explicit sexual nature). After that was over I helped him scrub food off of some dishes and then we sat outside and talked for a little while. He smoked a cigarette while I talked, disgusting.

We talked about a book he had that reminded me of Patrick. It was a book saying how a man should be a warrior, magician, leader(?) and lover. I'm pretty sure it's a transition book from boyhood to manhood. Patrick is really in to those, one of the many things I love about him. He's about bettering himself in any and every way possible.

Anyway, I left Jhonny's place around 4 since he was leaving at 5 to spend the weekend with his best friend (because he's newly single and obviously needs loved ones around). I felt bad once I thought about what happened. He just became single five days ago and we there I went. I had sex with someone about a week or two after I broke up with Darrin and I shouldn't have. That is the only time (except perhaps this time) that I regretted having sex. I wasn't into it and at one point I was staring blankly into his face. My mind was not in the right place for me to have been having sex. I was missing Darrin but feeling like that was sort of what I wanted, so I shouldn't complain. It was awful.

I feel like that's what happened with Jhonny. At one point I looked at him and he was staring at the ceiling. Because he noticed I was looking, afterward he felt the need to explain it.

Of course this could just be my interpretation of what happened.

The game he was playing is called The Binding of Isaac. It is seriously messed up, haha. Still, it's great. Play it if you wish.

Well, I have to return to the multitude of homework I have. Until next time.